Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can part2

[neffer]

M, you don´t need to stop loving W. You need to let her go.

(((M)))

[marina7]

Neffer,

Yes your right. Letting her go is the last thing
I need to do. We have nothing anymore. Everything is
Separated. Only tie is our Trios

I didn't realize it till yesterday. I haven't let go.
I thought I did but I haven't
I haven't slept asking myself, I should be excited finally
the GAL making recommendations but I ask myself
Why do I feel Blah and ya all hit it on the nose.

I have not let go. If I get kids the book that was open
is going be closed this mean W gets kids every other weekend's
Only.

Or again it could be me. Wow where W gets kids.
But again only God knows what is next.


So since today W been texting about trio's making
My favorite dessert and send pictures of them making it
With smiley face.

I wonder is this guilt. Because W knows I am alone just
Trio's and I, my BFF went out of state we had a early
Friend giving last week.

Not over thinking Why W doing this but I am grateful for W
Doing what W use to do. I am the chef of the family W was
The baker. W loved to bake and when kids came W would do
Baking with Trios.

This will be our 2nd year of holidays not together
Last year 2017 was fresh we where 7 months in now we are
1yr and 8months almost since BD.

But is true what they say with time it gets better last
Year I was mess today am ok and have accepted it.

[neffer]

You are strong today, you’ll be stronger tomorrow.
Enjoy Trio’s the most you can


((((M))))

[marina7]

Journaling,

Having an amazing time with Trio's...

Momma did it again Elf on Shelf came by.

Trio's have been dancing,laughing

D10 says ,this finally is complete.

At dinner yesterday S10 said

Thankful for mom m for not giving up and
bringing me home.

I am bless, hopefully will have Good news in couple
Weeks. My life is literally in GAL hands.

[marina7]

I hope Everyone had an amazing
THANKSGIVING...

Trio's and I went to holidays light up parade.

And in the middle of that I get a text from bestfriend
who was visiting family. Apparently her and H been
Talking about moving back home. So BF text saying they
Are moving in less then 2 weeks and my things that are
in the shed I must remove.

When it rains it pours been calling storage over $100
a month. Here I am trying to figure out what am I going do
With our things I had in shed. We live in smallest home
Barely have space but is a place for us 4.

A little upset with bestfriend H because he is so
Careless. I think he going through a Mlc himself
He ask bestfriend for me to have things out by
This week. I was shock but understood also.

Here I am trying to stay positive, but when it rains it pours

[peacetoday]

M

sorry- to hear friend is moving
will she still be close by?

Hopefully you can figure out where to store the extra stuff-

have a good night

[marina7]

Peacetoday,

Thank you,
Bf is moving back to her home state
Like 3 to 4hrs away.

Yes trying to figure out where to put our stuff

Unfortunately also this is going make me go through
Some painful memories. As I stated W, literally
Walk away, going through MLC so I also have W
Things.

My step mom who been separated from my dad
Today I ask her what do I do with pictures and memories
Of W and I, that's what I been fighting emotionally
W was in military many of memories of W

I will take the important things and paperwork and picture
And items of W. I will let her know to pick up from BF house

I honestly can't keep holding to W load also is alot
Trying to do all this on my own.

I know many will say W not in a good place mentally
But I can't keeping holding also to W things.

I did find a storage, money I don't have either.

Bf, husband is going through his own crisis
He simply not happy. I honestly feel sorry for bf
As she doesn't see it. Bf is a sahm and depends
on H literally, bf doesn't even have her own debit
Card. When I got that text I simply replied ok
But then bf kept saying he wanted by Tomorrow
I of course said What... I was shock and said please give me
A week. Bf apologized over and over and just kept
Saying sorry he going nuts. I truly understand what bf
Is saying as I am seeing it myself he is losing his mind

Is crazy as I see the sign's Now. W had them just
Differently before bd
Big party for me for birthday
I love you daily W said how much I meant to her
Oh let's have a baby.... M I want us to have a baby
for W to carry as her own.

Bf ,h
Purchase a motorcycle 1yr ago
Less then 3 months was going buy a home
Without bf knowing but not approved
H ask for friends and family to cosign
I was one Nope
H was going to open his own business less then
2 month's ago he got denied
And less then a month ago purchased all new furniture
Also bf didn't know.
H tells bf wants to buy a RV to travel bf said oh No



And Boom moving Now... like now... H tells Bf



The sad part there are younger kids under 6.. and 2

I just know bd is also going come to BF soon but
Bf in denial.

So here I am stressing about storage

[peacetoday]

Hi

I think -MLC is catchy

and seems to happen to friends because we are all about the same age
right about 40 for men give or take a few years and a few less for women

And once we see it and understand it..
We will see many friends go thru it

I had a good Female friend who went into MLC after My XH
and another good friends H shortly after-
Unfortunately its all over the place-


When the time was right and enough time passed
I gave XH clothes away and then through out the rest


to this day almost 10 years from BD- He never asked or cared about his stuff

Maybe you could ask her if she wants her stuff or is there a neutral place to put it --tell w and if she doesn't want it give it away

[Pax_luv]

Marina,
Thanks for stopping by my thread. I think you’ve handled your situation with quite a bit of grace and fortitude. The additional challenge to these complex situations for the LBS is remaining true to ones moral compass and ensuring that all actions are in alignment with each of our north stars.

It’s so easy to get caught up in the stress and chaos that is our reality and sometimes it seems easier to throw in the towel, or go tit for tat, or even want revenge. It seems to take extra amount of work and energy to sit back and examine our thoughts and actions and ensure that we rise above the actions that our ex’s are showing us. Very tough, but worth it.

I hope you were able to find a solution for the storage space. That’s an additional curveball that I’m sure is difficult to navigate.

All the best to you and the trios.

[DnJ]

Hello marina

You are getting some excellent advice from some truely amazing people. I admire how you have handled yourself and your situation; you are still on course keeping that heading in sight. Well done!

It is a little nerve-wracking waiting for the GAL formal recommendation and the judicial decision. You are taking a very good approach to this, you have done all you can, it is now in other hands.

You are doing so very well.

Stay strong and keep the faith.

DnJ