Brave Little Gerda, So Chilled She Could Not Speak

[Gerda]

SBJ,I read your note over many times. I love when you come by, you give me a lot of peace somehow.

I practiced being thankful in SBJ style the last two days. And it was funny, my D9 didn't know I was doing that, but then she kept saying this evening how she realized she should be thanking me more often! (We are always together and she is pretty defiant these days, so we knock heads a bit.)

I read your line about me bringing some light to the boards about a hundred times. I can't figure out what you have seen that would lead you to say that other thing you said, I am too embarrassed to quote it. But definitely I just want God to keep changing me to make me better. Even if my H never comes back, I am seeing now that God wants me for Himself. What a mystery that is. But I can't deny how the path of my life led me to him, it was a miracle that I ever found Him at all, and I realize that without Him walking this dark path with me, I would have ended up becoming something I always dreaded without knowing why.

Do you know the Jen Johnson song, "In Over My Head? Check it out if you have not heard it. It reminds me of what you said.