Take it from someone who has been there

And I know this is cold comfort

But you will not continue to live like this

Your situation will change

This is temporary

Take it one day at a time

Or one hour or one minute

Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids
2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong
2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2
2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving