Thanks guys. Yes, I’ve been told it’s emotional abuse I keep hanging on because I want the comfort of what I knew, even if it wasn’t good. I want the financial stability. And I want the idea of the perfect marriage that people thought we had but didn’t have. I’ll be the first to admit I wasn’t happy with him and even ambivalent when we first started dating. But I have a history of having a hard time letting go of bad relationships. I don’t want to feel like I failed and got left for someone else.
It makes me mad that people think he’s such a nice guy. I thought he was. It’s the main reason I married him as I have a history of dating jerks. He never talked like this to me when we were married. It’s only now. I think he gets off on the control. I tell myself that walking away would be the best move for me and to show him that I won’t be around to stroke his ego.
