13 yrs and two kids pt. 2.

[Hurt213]

Yea well, don't give me any applauds just yet.. Tonight I screwed up bad.

I have been sleeping most of the day (pain killer buzz), and tonight I came into the living room to be on the couch. WW had showered (left her intimate razors in the shower), and was looking real sexy in a new tight dress.

She said she would be leaving at 19.00 after the kids were sleeping, and she would be going to a girlfriends house. I somehow lost it, blame it on bad judgement, rage, pills. I don't even know...

So here goes:

I said to her, that I needed to talk with her for two minutes before she left: She came over to the couch and sat down. I said that I was really really tired of being treated with this disrespectful behaviour of hers. I said that it was none of my business where she went, but the fact that I know in my hearth that she is going to be with OM was enough (Furious to why she will be going there to do sexual activities when she the night before said she was sure she wouldn't stay with him). She then proceeded to say, that she would indeed be going to OM, and that she would be home late. I said I wouldn't want to stay in the way of her new life, so tomorrow she could mail the real estate broker, and accept his offer on putting the house up for sale. I also told her that friday we would settle the remaining financial stuff. I then proceeded to tell her what weeks where hers and which where mine with the kids, since she has been overstepping that boundary for a while, and I haven't enforced it. She agreed to all of these and said that she never changed her mind about leaving me and R was never on the table. I said okay, that was all I needed from you.

I knew instantly that I completely lost my cool and this is probably the end. Oh well...