Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can part2

[marina7]

Neffer,

Yes your right. Letting her go is the last thing
I need to do. We have nothing anymore. Everything is
Separated. Only tie is our Trios

I didn't realize it till yesterday. I haven't let go.
I thought I did but I haven't
I haven't slept asking myself, I should be excited finally
the GAL making recommendations but I ask myself
Why do I feel Blah and ya all hit it on the nose.

I have not let go. If I get kids the book that was open
is going be closed this mean W gets kids every other weekend's
Only.

Or again it could be me. Wow where W gets kids.
But again only God knows what is next.


So since today W been texting about trio's making
My favorite dessert and send pictures of them making it
With smiley face.

I wonder is this guilt. Because W knows I am alone just
Trio's and I, my BFF went out of state we had a early
Friend giving last week.

Not over thinking Why W doing this but I am grateful for W
Doing what W use to do. I am the chef of the family W was
The baker. W loved to bake and when kids came W would do
Baking with Trios.

This will be our 2nd year of holidays not together
Last year 2017 was fresh we where 7 months in now we are
1yr and 8months almost since BD.

But is true what they say with time it gets better last
Year I was mess today am ok and have accepted it.