Sounds like you know what you’re doing and have everything under control.
If the advice you’re getting here isn’t helpful, or if you feel like it’s redundant, what is your purpose in being here?
I’m not trying to be sarcastic, it’s a question worth thinking about.
It’s fine to be very angry. In fact it’s healthy. You seem to be frustrated because despite how well you feel you’re implementing DB, you’re not getting what you want. That’s normal! It’s part of the journey.
You’ll get some advice that might be uncomfortable. It’s not to make you feel bad, it’s to point out areas where you might be able to make some changes. My observation is that you have an opportunity to think about how your reactions to the feeling that you might have done something wrong (fear) can lead you to cause more problems for yourself (anger). Why do I say that? Because I used to be like that, and I suffered the consequences. Now I’m here to help other people like you learn from my mistakes.
Just keep in mind that people here are trying to help you. Don’t be afraid to be open to the idea of change.
H: 35 W: 33 M: 11 T: 13
4/10/18: I discovered A and confronted ("BD1") 6/23/18: I moved out 8/31/18: MC ends ("BD2")