Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can part2

[marina7]

Gerda, Oneart and Peacetoday

Ok to answer you Gerda,

I might have written it wrong. Or misunderstanding
Yes I wanted to hear this, I know W is not stable at all

I also know my kids love their Mom. The old W.
No matter what kids are kids W has hurted kids many times
But they love her. They have their moments but they love her
As much I want to protect them I also can't keep them away.

Will I push the kids on W or vice versa No I wouldn't
If W doesn't call them or see them I won't bother.

So I know this is the best for Kids. It still Hurts. Because at the end
It feels horrible because I can't imagine what the kids are going to feel
When the GAL tells kids. I again didn't expect this but also I know
W is screaming for help and her saying I can't anymore make your
Decision. I know what W meant. So I will be ok with whatever GAL decides.

I believe the GAL. All I can do is pray.

OneArt, yes you hit in on the nose
If I do get Trios I truly know we all 4 will start healing as a family
But I also know I will let go. I know it scares me. Why, because can I stop loving W
Can I then meet someone that will make me happy. Will W fade from
My dreams, mind and heart will W then just become another person for me
Like someone I don't know or ever knew. So Yes I am scared of hope I guess
But I also know whatever the GAL decides I am closing the book after thar
And starting a New journey for me and trio's. A new Beginning.

Peacetoday,
Gal did say this is the time where you or W send emails and any dirt.

I basically made my peace. I hope all the petitions I have in court speaks
For itself. I can't no longer emotionally do this. I have never spoken ill about W
And I think I will never will. I know GAL sees I devote my life to kids, also knows
I have done whatever it takes. GAL sees it.

Yesterday I said my peace. And now I wait.
GAL know I have support as step mom flew out, also my bestfriend been
There for kids and I. I have emotional and physical support. GAL also knows
My financial situation. But besides financial I am good.

Now all I can do is keep letting God lead me. Because this is no
Longer my story is God story.

So W and I agree for Thanksgiving plan.

W has them today till Tomorrow till 3pm

Then I have the trio's all week.
W today sent a text.
S9 baking your favorite cookies
D10 making your favorite pie
S10 making your favorite cake.

I stared at this text for 10min shock.
Like wow. I replied
Wow tell the trio's thank you and can't wait to eat them
W shhhh act surprise
M ok thank you

Ummm not sure what to think. But I am not reading into it
Usually this is W unfortunately W plays alot with emotions
Especially with kids. It was me at first but now it doesn't affect me
Because I know W likes reaction.


Thank you again. And Happy Thanksgiving everyone