Reading other threads is a bit disheartening. It will likely be less than four months from DB to D for me. I see that it's extremely unlikely that WAS will second guess themselves in that short amount of time. Basically, I never had a chance.
I have to continue the path I've started. For about the last month I've done a good job of treating my sitch as if I'm already divorced and just learning to cope with that. I know I'll be alright. The finality of it all hurts though. I'm not sure I'm the type that will just keep hanging on after the D--which is probably good for coping. I am out of the fog of completely blaming myself. Part of me thinks that maybe I'm better off without her.
It's still hard for me to wrap my head around W wanting D without any chance of R after 17 years and 2 daughters when I am a good guy, a good father, faithful, strong provider, not a jealous type, nor one to care about money, etc. There's still a part of me that hopes she regrets this... that the grass isn't necessarily greener on the other side. Then again, maybe it will be for her. I can't control that though, so I just have to continue down the path of GAL, 180, and detach.
