An update. I don't post lots, it's often hard for me to get into it, but here's what's been going on.
Been fighting some more depression since my last post but have had a decent week or so.
Seems i'm ND now. Not interested, libido seems to be off these days..sometimes i can spark it with a bit of porn but now that i have a wife willing and insisting on it every day (otherwise she'll feel rejected...oooh have i felt like dishing out a bit of that in revenge a few times), i don't find any spark within myself for ML.
I'm in the 'just do it' phase myself...once i'm into it everything is ok, but it's taking a lot of mental gymnastics to get me started. We're on a pretty regular one session per day, 2+ O's for her and 3+ for me, i'm just not excited about it.
Wife has gone above and beyond...we've bought some toys (first time ever), erotica, and have more on the way. Everything i thought i wanted and i feel really blase about that and life these days.
Still waiting for my copy of PM. I am hoping that it will help me through some of my M issues. From what i have been able to gather so far on these boards, i think i have a big problem with having been 'fused' in the relationship.
ok, i feel like i'm rambling at the moment..but needed to spew and see if i get any responses, even if they are barely relevant
