Thanks for your help and comments. As you can probably see, right now i am in a state of confusion.
I will get PM and check it out. 'emotionally fused' sounds like a concept i need to learn more about. I'm still trying to find my individuality...i felt that the temporary situation gave me some of that back, and i'm working hard to to try and maintain that, which is something else that is holding me back from recommitting to my M.
Yes, honey, the EA is definitely a road block. It has held me up through a rough time and given me self affirmation where there hadn't been any for a long time. It is an escape from reality and seems to be the only place i find happiness these days, yet I know that continuing it is a pull away from the M.
