You guys are right...i am still questiong the M. I'm not questioning wife's motivations or actions...i know her well enough to know this is not an act, and that she will do her utmost to continue with her actions in order to hang on to me.
I find being with W to often be stressful and difficult on my nerves. It has been that way almost since the beginning. I don't know if i can be happy with her, and i'm not able to find the energy yet to start working on that.
