DNJ gives great advice

Good for you to see antidepressants will not solve this

Most of us here experienced what you are experiencing

You can and will get though this

It will get better

And thoughts of OMs are the worst

Sadly for most of us there is an EA or PA of some sort

They say there is no way around the pain

Only through the pain

I tried the pain avoidance technique

And it did not work

It only made things worse

Only made me feel more trapped in that pain

So yes write vent cry question scream yell

Here and IRL

Most have no idea how to suppprt you

But you will find help if you open yourself to it

And it may come from someone you least suspect


Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids
2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong
2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2
2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving