Good for you to see antidepressants will not solve this
Most of us here experienced what you are experiencing
You can and will get though this
It will get better
And thoughts of OMs are the worst
Sadly for most of us there is an EA or PA of some sort
They say there is no way around the pain
Only through the pain
I tried the pain avoidance technique
And it did not work
It only made things worse
Only made me feel more trapped in that pain
So yes write vent cry question scream yell
Here and IRL
Most have no idea how to suppprt you
But you will find help if you open yourself to it
And it may come from someone you least suspect
Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids 2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong 2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2 2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving