Emotions were are little better. Still some hard moments, but I was able to shed only a few tears this time versus having a breakdown.
Got my hair cut to near buzz cut level. I have lost nearly all my hair on the top of my head and have hair on the side and back. Hair is thick in the back and I looked...weird. Decided to go for it and cut it extremely short. Attempting for a Jason Statham look. For the most part, it looks really good. I like it. Another change that I embraced.
W seems to have gotten the hint that I have gone dark. She stopped asking me how things are going, how I'm doing, etc. A little bummed there is not any more pursuit on her end, but it's not anything I am fixating on. I just think of the horrible way she is treating me and move on.
Joined two singles groups in Meetup and planning on attending some of the events as time progresses. I mean, hey, I am single, right?
Other than that, nothing groundbreaking to report. Still sad, still mourning, but happy at my progress. I complain to my mom almost daily about this. I know that I should not continue to repeat the same thing on a daily basis, but something about her telling me that it will all work out and God will make it ok is more reassuring. It just reinforces the notion that I have control of myself. Whatever happens is in God's hands.
Meditation tonight followed by lifting. A friend is joining us for Thanksgiving brunch (the friend who W cheated on. I'm over it).
