[Living]

UPDATE

I’ve been busy GAL and the H has definitely noticed it. I’ve also been doing things around the house that he once complained weren’t being done. I’ve been consistent with all of this for the past few weeks. The other day as I was loading the dishwasher, he came in the kitchen and actually helped me.

Then on Saturday he asked me out to dinner. I accepted his offer and we went and had a nice dinner. After dinner we returned home and I thanked him for a lovely evening and went to my room. He looked a little sad but I left him sitting on the couch.

Then on Sunday we went grocery shopping and to lunch. We actually laughed and had some fun. Later that day he told me that he enjoyed the day we had and that it felt good. He told me how much he loves me and how much he misses me. He then told me that he knows he has hurt me and he is very sorry. I just sat there and listened to him. I actually didn’t know what the heck else to do. He said that he hopes I don’t hate him.

Later Sunday evening he begin trying to be affectionate towards me. By affectionate I mean trying to touch me I guess in an affectionate way. I asked why he was doing this, he said because I’m his wife and he loves me. I told him I hope he doesn’t think that things can go back to the way they were and that we can just pick the marriage up where it left off. He said he understands.

Listen, I’m at a loss. I’m not sure what to do. My therapist says I need to have a long talk with him and see what he wants to do about the marriage. I’m not sure if that’s what I should do or not. However, I do think a conversation must be had because I think he may be thinking that we can just resume the marriage. I can say without a doubt that there is no way in hell we can resume this marriage without resolving some major issues.

The crazy thing is I can see signs of the man I fell in love with showing up. Now make no mistake I’m still playing things cool and I’m not acting excited when he says these things to me. I guess I’m just confused as to how I proceed now.