Slow down and breathe. One second you had to do anything to get her back, and in the next breat you need a crowdfunding page for a lawyer to end this fight. One end of the spectrum to another in 60 seconds flat,

First, don’t do a crowdfunding page to take care of YOUR divorce. Personal opinion, but those are for people who have lost everything and lives in tragedy or lost a child or has a horrible illness. If you really want a retainer go ask those friends of yours thT would donate to the crowdfunding page.
It would be extra wrong if after you got the money and in that second you decided you wanted to go nuts to save the marriage again!

Breathe. Just breathe. And for the love of god stop engaging with her! It throws you off kilter and absolutely nothing gets accomplished! And the other night, it sees as if you have these emotional arguments and discussion in front of S3 that he tried to push you together! Stop that immediately! Those kids are sponges!

Your best action right now? Go dark, stop having these hours and hours long convos that do nothing but upset you and S3 . Set some serious boundaries. Respond to nothing unless it has to do with S3

Seriously, you are spinning and it’s helping no one.i know you have the ADHD, and here it is coming out full force. Wanting to make a whole bunch of opposite actions, but achieving nothing .

Start here. You need to do absolutely nothing but go dark for now.