Thank you for the response, FS. I was doing really well, but I have been backsliding the last few days--mainly because this is the week we are going to tell D12 and D8 about the D.
I had a great week with the girls. Went to our first SEC football game, taught D12 how to play a couple new board games, and lots of other great things. However, they'd make comments like "I can't wait until the house sells and you can move down here" or "when Mom gets back, we should do ___". It tore me up every time. I actually got bitter because it all seems so unnecessary. I got the kick in the pants I needed to get back to being a great version of me, but W won't even think about R. Too little, too late.
Some strange things happening all over. It was a weird week of interactions with STBXW. At the beginning of week, she didn't stop texting me. Literally, a dozen times/day over the smallest things. Then, she went dark on me for 4-5 days. It's almost easier at this point when I don't hear from her. I'm not mind reading like I was, but just an observation. Kind of odd.
I flew back today with the girls. I let the girls go over to W's relatives for dinner. I get along really well with these relatives (W's aunt/uncle). When they came to pick up the girls, they didn't even come to the door to say hi. I felt ostracized. However, when they dropped off the girls, W's uncle (through marriage) came up to the door, shook my hand, said a few kind words, and shrugged as if to say "man, I feel bad for you guys." For some reason I really appreciated that. He later made a comment on FB about how the girls talked a lot about our weekend activities.
W filed last Tuesday. We have a hearing scheduled for 12/3.
