I've done a quick read of your situation RyanHun, and I feel for you. I've gotta say though, I especially appreciated your post about the new hair cut. Yes! So glad to see another person trying to take risks for yourself, be your best version and acknowledge that you're still learning and trying. It has all resonated with me as I'm also pretty new in this process and I'm just trying to get through in the healthiest way possible.
I'm not someone who wears makeup, but I've found myself intentionally wearing my power lipstick, putting on a bit of mascara, and dressing extra nice for work every day. It's a bit foreign, but I feel like I'm trying on different versions of myself to see who fits.
Originally Posted by RyanHun
It really just sunk in that the marriage and family that i once cherished so much are gone. I value my W and my family more then anything in this life and will do everything in my power to hopefully one day find a way to make it work but for now this is reality.
This is my mantra as well - "this is my current reality". I've had to keep reminding myself that I have two wives. The first is who I shared the past 9+ years with who I loved dearly and who loved me back. The other is this current person in pain, who is acting out in insane ways.
