BM, I completely agree with Steve. You've owned your part and you've made it clear to her that you've owned it. This is just more typical WAS history rewriting and guilt-assigning. Let it be water off a duck's back my man.
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Which I honestly have tried to do all along...but maybe I just didn't do it the way she needed me to...I don't know.
Don't forget, WAS's present an endless series of moving targets. You hit one then three more pop up. Don't buy into it.
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I need to figure that out. Fast.
No, SHE needs to figure out her crap. This isn't on you.
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I need her in my life. Okay, NEED sounds whiny...but you guys and girls know what I mean.
You don't "need" her. You may "want" her, but you will survive just fine without her. She's just triggering those old fight-or-flight instincts and making you spin a little. That's fine but try to get back on track.
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I really need to fix this while I have a shot.
You can't fix her. Only she can do that.
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God this is difficult.
It's the hardest thing most of us will ever go through. At times it seems desperate and hopeless, like you will never love or even live again. But you will. Just take it a day at a time!