[/quote]I will say that going out with friends was great, but it was so lonely without the love of my life there with me. I saw all the other couples having romantic dinners and it stung......hard. then, picking up the kids and coming home to an empty house stung even more. The kids asking where mama is, wanting her to sing lullabies and tuck them in. She doesn't go out with friends very often.....this was the first time in months. So I don't know if this will become the new norm or not. Having been through this, does she feel the same loneliness coming home to an empty house?[quote]
I can just imagine the sinking feelings...I am familiar with the questions from the kids, it triggers those feelings of loneliness and anger even more I find. She likely does feel the loneliness of an empty house, how it affects her Im not sure. It could feed guilt, feed her feelings of emptiness/void or remind her of her wanting to run urges or something else. But I would imagine she does feel it. MLC is a tough haul. They are pretty selfish through out the crisis. Im sorry it is so hard, I am dealing with my H second round as we speak. It [censored] to say the least. She seems to be cycling, it gets worse before it gets better...
Watching the sky for the space shuttle return...relief, lights at last BD May/12 (37, H41- D18 D13 S11) July 2012 ILYBNILY reconcile oct/12 no AP 2nd BD Jan/18 start again Original AP
