Thanks, FS. That’s a great point. I have a ways to go to love myself. That’s what I need to work on. I haven’t been myself the last two years. With my health issues I haven’t gotten to the gym in a couple of years. I need to go regardless of the pain.
Had an awesome time last night with a bunch of friends for a Friendsgiving. I was the 13th wheel essentially, but it was fine. A lot of them know my story and told me I dodged a bullet, which I truly believe, but at the same time, I miss what could have been.
I have a call with an attorney on Monday. My wife isn’t fighting to split assets or anything, so everything should happen quickly. Part of me wants to reach out to her dad to confront him on his sins for meddling in our marriage and separating my wife from me. I also want to bring my wife’s sins to her current pastor. Not to get her back, as I don’t see this making a difference, but more so for my own conscious to say I tried everything. Part of me doesn’t even want to put in the work to lift a finger, as I know it won’t make a difference. Think after 10 months of hardly any communication and the fact that she is spreading lies about me I’m just emotionally drained and done.
Can’t believe I’m a month or two away from divorce. I know life will go on, but the way this has happened leaves me feeling I can’t trust anyone. Assuming I don’t contact my wife is she doesn’t contact me still, right? If that’s the case, I don’t know if I will ever hear from her again.