Honestly, I'm hurting. I thought having my son every other weekend and just getting a couple hours on Tuesday and Thursday after work was bad, but with that schedule she was letting me see him for a little bit on "her Sunday" too, so I could take him to church...but, now with the judge's order signed, she's holding to it strictly and isn't going to give me ANY time with him other than the Wednesday overnights and every other weekend that the judge gave me. That means that every other week (when it's "her weekend"), I won't see him for a full week straight, AND he will only be in church when he's with me every other weekend.
I want to believe that she isn't doing this just to hurt me, but I know that she KNOWS she's hurting me. If things were ordered the other way around, there is no way I would ever treat her the same way.
All of that being said, I realize that this is only temporary. I'm not going to beg her to change her mind, and I'm not going to try to make her understand how much she's hurting me (and our son for that matter). I can go back to the way things were at any time, because that is the way SHE wants it. I just have to decide whether I want to keep fighting, or if I can be OK with continuing the way the last 6-7 months have gone for the next 10 years.
Me: Late 30s WW: Late 30s M: 12 S: 7 BD: Late April '18 (Wife left next day) OM confirmed: July '18 (20+ years older)
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. - Psalms 34:18
