13 yrs and two kids pt. 2.

[Hurt213]

You are right. I can't say that I mean those things wholeheartedly, because I love the woman. However that is how I felt at the time - fact is, that its a rollercoaster, and the ups and downs are huge for me at this time in point.

I plan to not be in the house with her when the kids are sleeping.

I plan to not engage or start any conversations related to OM, my whereabouts at night, or our relationship (whatever it is at this point)

I plan to and promise to go out and try things I have never tried before (not talking about reckless stuff here) but simply to expand on my social circle, and try new things.

I plan to work on making a change to the things about me, that I really want to work with (insecurity / social fobia highest on that list).

I plan to do things that make me happy.

I plan to secure my self in case she pulls the hand break and does something stupid as [censored].