It would be about the ballsiest move I’ve ever pulled in my life. .
Yep. Ballsy.
I totally get all the advice you're getting here ... it is in a way getting your b@lls back ... and you will feel more in control of your life ...
... but a word of caution ...
I did a 6 month IHS and it was the worst period of my entire life. Everything about the environment was toxic. He was angry and spiteful and everything I did, including breathing made him angry. It makes detaching doubly hard because they are in your face all the time reminding you that they don't love you anymore. And you are in their face all time reminding them of how much they don't want to be with you. Since MO, space has allowed us to interact on a much more even keel. Yes, it is awkward, yes, he feels further away than ever, but at least I have space now to heal.
You mention she will lose her sh!t and you are absolutely correct. Can you come home to someone who will undoubtedly despise you for forcing your way back in ... just to get your b@lls back?
I guess what I am asking is what is your goal here? And does this bring you further or closer to that goal?
On the other hand, you might feel strong enough to handle the toxicity. Can you continue to detach with her in your face all the time? If you think you can do and you think moving back in will bring you closer to your goal, then take the advice above and move back in.
