So I made a journal post in old thread, about what went down, and I slept on in. I woke up this morning, realizing that I just have to let go really. Let her do her thing (I can't convince her otherwise, it will have to be her). I am going to be the most attractive man I can be for myself. The most loving father I can be for my kids, and really try and get out there. I know there will be ups and downs, as those of you who have followed my stitch, surely can see that there are - however I am currently feeling like the only way to get better, is to let her come back if she CHOOSES to, not because i can persuade her to. She needs to go out there and experience whatever it think it is that she is "missing out on". And as long as I do things to convince her otherwise, she will resent me for it.
I also realized, that me loosing my cool yesterday and spewing once again how I am done with her, and that she is doing something so disrespectful to me, that I can't even comprehend it and so on (read my journal from yesterday), needs to stop. <-- I sat down a boundary with the advice from Sandi, and dumped her. Now I need to go to another place, where I focus on me, because I think if I keep on bringing up how badly she has treated me and the family, and how she keeps disrespecting me, it will simply loose its effect on her, and will just be words coming out my mouth.
She looked at me like nothing I said yesterday mattered, and it had no impact on her - I think it really just set me back, and pushed her into the arms of OM. Therefore, I am not going to bring it up again, unless she breaks my boundaries about talking to me about OM.
Does it make sense?
Last edited by Hurt213; 11/16/1807:47 AM.
BD: Wife says "its over" 11th august 2018. EA: June 2018 PA: August 2018 - ongoing Status: Taking turns 7 days a week to be in the house w. kids WW: no regrets, seems happy with leaving.
