There was something my IC told me yesterday that pertains to the healing process. BD is the equivalent of the beginning of a deep wound. The stuff follows is equivalent of the wound getting deeper. The cutting/stabbing/scraping, etc. stops when the S process starts.
DBing is dressing the wound. And at first, you’re just trying to get the bleeding to stop, which it eventually does. And the wound then begins to start the repair process. Blood clotting, removing infection, scabbing, and so forth. Then eventually you have to take off the bandages and expose the wound again. More pain. So you clean it the wound (DBing) and dress it again. You do this many times over weeks, months, or longer. Over time, the healing process continues, and you have to dress it less and less. The wound eventually closes. The pain eventually stops. And you are left with a scar that serves as a reminder of the events you endured.
The way you’re feeling right now, is ok. Don’t rush the healing process. Let it do it’s thing. Some people take longer to heal. I know I am. Just take care of yourself. Get healthier, GAL, engage in healthy activities, spend time with your children, friends. And let out your emotions when you have to.
