I've been feeling tired and struggling with my levels of motivation recently. I think I'm just tired from the whole year, and worrying about work after the start I had to the year, and the months it's taken for me to get my contract for December.
Anyway, it was starting to affect my sleep and my feelings. I'd slipped back into my sleeping 4 hours a night old insomnia pattern, felt too tired to go to the gym, and so on.
I made myself go to the gym las night. While I was there I plugged myself into a dance mix on YouTube and cycled hard for 45 minutes. My legs were all wobbly afterwards and I couldn't stand up for a few minutes when I first stepped off the cycle...lol! But man, did I sleep soundly last night and feel much better this morning.
How on earth did I get myself into such positive frame of mind in the period of time after BD and before I started exercising? It's so much easier with exercise.
My mum commented that I am physically and mentally much stronger than before. I'm still loving my journey.
I'm slowly starting to work on my tax return for this past year (deadline for submission: 31 January 2019). So, we'll see how my earnings compare to previous years. My gut feeling is that all the hassle I had at the start of the year has affected my income for the year. But my goal was also to try and earn more evenly throughout the year. So, earnings could be down on the previous year, but I could have actually achieved my goal. We'll see.
I also went back to BD in my email inbox and cleared away/filed some emails away. It was pretty painful, I have to admit. I couldn't read them. There weren't any from XH, just my mum. Maybe January when it's quiet, I'll go back to the previous year as well, and file/delete some of those emails as well. I can do a few at a time. They're small, quiet jobs, that keep things moving forwards in my life.
