13 years and two small children

[Hurt213]

Journal:

So yesterday I stood up for my self, and then I went to work.

She wrote me 3 messages - One being about how she didn't find it alright, that I had informed her mother - I didn't answer. Second one being about how she dont even know if there IS another man in the picture, again, I didn't answer.
Third text was about her doing groceries, and if I needed anything - I didn't answer.

Later she came home (and I have [censored] up I think), but I told her, that im not a cruel person like she has been to me (she is a teacher and has meetings wednesday, thursday and friday afternoon), so I would be picking up the kids, stay with them and having a good time, and when she gets home I will be leaving the house (I know I shouldn't be the one doing that, but I needed to clear my head, and show her, that I ment what i told her, when I said I was done with her.

So... I did.. When she came home yesterday, I packed my gym bag, packed my necessities, and kissed and hugged my kids. My 1 year old, came down from WWs lap, and ran across the living room, gave me a huge hug and waved while he said daddy. My daughter gave me a kiss and said bye bye.

I could see from the corner of my eye, that WW was smiling and found it to be real cute (I disliked her satisfaction).
I didnt speak one word with her the entire time, and I didn't say goodbye - I just took my bags, and left.

I then went to the gym, and afterwards I headed out to my sisters place where I spent the night.

Today I will pick up the kids, have fun with them, and later when she arrives home after work, I will be going again - I know I should stay and she should go, however she isn't going to I think, and I need to get a good headstart on my new behaviour towards her, so it is needed for me to get out a couple of days).

Tomorrow after work, she will b going to OM, and I told her I think she should find another place to live - I doubt she is going to, however I will be at the house again come tomorrow, and then I will show her, that I am done with her, but also show her that I am contempt, happy and moving forward through my actions. I will try to GAL as much as possible, and not stay in the house with her after the kids are asleep.

I haven't heard from her since the 3 texts yesterday, and I won't lie, it is really hard - and my mind is constantly processing a lot of stuff about her, however I know this is the best way to detach.

I do believe this is the space she needs (and me too) - And I really can't stand the disrespect of her going to see OM anymore while we live under the same roof.