It's amazing how one experience can be so uplifting and carry you for a long time. Ever since I experienced the sunset yesterday, I felt stronger, more hopeful (not about chances for R, but about me), and more determined to be AMOAFWL. While I had some free time, I started assembling a dressy casual wardrobe for myself. I am working on budgeting aside some money so that I can buy those clothes and use them in my GAL events.
Possible GAL event tonight. Not sure yet.
Planned an overnight with D4 and I next weekend. Taking her to a town where the Christmas season really begins and the entire town is decorated to reflect the season.
I got my bloodwork back. Everything is looking good, especially at the age and the stress I am going through. That being said, even though I have my dips in confidence, I am feeling really good about myself. I am a person who judges myself on real data, not wishful thinking, so I am hoping that at my next weigh-in I will have made some tangible progress.
Slightly awkward ending to the call with W and D4. They call me around her bedtime so that I can read D4 a bedtime story. I told her a story and told D4 about our surprise plans for next weekend. She is looking forward to that. Then W took the phone and asked where I was going. I initially hesitated, but since I am taking D4 with me she does have a right to know where her child is going, so I told her. I then ended the call by saying that "I'll talk to you two tomorrow morning?" She paused and asked if we made plans to talk tomorrow morning. I had to think about it and tell her that sometimes she calls with D4 when they are on their way to work. I finally cut it short by saying that I'll talk to them eventually tomorrow. I ended the call and went about my night.
Busy day at work, but not a bad one. I see MC this afternoon. I hope that this time I can keep it together and end it on a upbeat note.
