Not the best night of sleep but I am used to playing pool sleep-deprived so it should be okay.
Have you tried mediation? My biggest problem is shutting my brain off, and now a year post BD, I still can't sleep but find that listening to guided mediation helps. It also has the advantage of helping us heal. Listen to mediations on quieting the mind, letting go, dealing with your emotions, positive affirmations etc. I usually fall asleep before I can finish them, but am keeping my fingers crossed that the mediations work when you are asleep.
Originally Posted by DejaVu6
I’m sure my H is horrified by my victim-like presentation yesterday - my aversion to his house and everything it represents. It feels like his mistress to me. I can’t even be in his area of town (and my job takes me there unfortunately) without feeling sick to my stomach.
I get this - the 'building a life' that you are not a part of. You mentioned in a previous post that they were building memories without you. Turn it around, you have been building memories with your kids without him FOR YEARS.
It is about changing your mindset. Your kids build memories without you every time they go on a play date, or every day when they are at school.
Now, go out and win that tournament. I want to hear all about it
