I just remember something I wanted to talk to you or anybody reading these post about. When I saw her yesterday looking worn out I felt like the love goggles starting to come off a bit. I was really looking at her and seeing the cracks in her facade, or rather the facade that I had mentally created. To me she was an endlessly beautiful creature, no matter what she did with herself I could only see this flawless beauty, the muse that I married. For a brief moment yesterday, when I was looking at her all I saw was flaws, a worn out, pathetic mid-30s woman. I wondered if I was a single guy and meeting her for the first time right now, would I even be physically attracted to her. Then it was like my brain kicked into protection mode and the love googles went back up and she was my beautiful W again. It was a weird feeling. Is this unique or something similar happen to you at any point BD to D?
H(37) W(35) D8, D5, S3 T20, M13 BD 8/31/18 EA Discovered 9/13/18 Mediation 10/3/18 W files for D 10/12/18 W moves out 11/10/18 EA confirmed 12/25/18 D Final 1/10/19
