Thank you FS. I have always been a super positive person but this experience is really testing me. I think it is just starting to sink in that this really could be it. I didn’t realize how much i have relied on my H...or relied on the person I had built up in my mind. I need to find some way to accept this and to stop being such a victim. I think i also have a lot of shame that i just blindly believed all of my H’s lies even when a part of me knew what he was telling me could not be true. It’s like i just buried my head in the sand and left it there. I could have put a stop to this three years ago if i had paid attention to my inner voice. It is embarrassing because i am a smart person. I used to be really confident too. I so want to be that person again.
