Hi DjV - I will respond fully later but keep your head up. I chalk it down to good days and bad. When H MO al my days were bad. Then good moments crept in, then good days ... eventually the gap between the bad days will get longer. When the bad days hit, the intensity is just as strong (and it feels like it did those first few months) but the feeling doesn’t last as long.
I have come to the conclusion that H still keeps things from me, is definitely cake eating, is nice as long as he is getting his way (or out of guilt) and there is FA I can do about. I just need to carry on. The balance between being lovingly detached and being cold is harder to manage (hurt people shut down - And at the moment I am definitely hurting).
I am seeing a Reiki practitioner today to see if “I can get my energies up”. First time but will try anything at the moment
