Well so far so good. I love my new job and I'm settling into a new schedule with just me and my son. H likes to call every night to say goodnight to our son which is basically a one sided conversation since the kiddo is six and not into talking on the phone. I don't prompt him to talk as much and it ends up being awkward for him.

There was one night he ended the conversation with "love ya" as a goodbye and then I got super quiet and I think he realized what he said because he was quiet too. I just hung up and honestly it kind of messed with me for a day or two but I pushed past it and chalked it up to his weird behavior. Its still the same thing; one minute he's chatty and the next he acts like its a chore to talk to me. Especially after the love remark, he totally gave the cold shoulder to me after his blurting that out...lol! I'm the one who has to initiate every hello and small talk while we wait for our son to get ready to go with him and it's just disappointing and maddening that a grown man can act like that. The guy can't even come into the living room or go upstairs to get his things. I've been sort of conned into getting some things for him from upstairs but no more, he can get his own things if he needs them so badly. I know now that its not me at all, he's screwed up with whatever his issues are and I am only bettering myself while I notice him looking miserable and a mess. I feel good and in fact I'm looking to work hard, get some school under my belt, and I want to try to the assistant manager position at my job.

H and I have both seen as well as went over some paperwork separately with our own lawyers but nothing is signed and finished yet.

I'm excited for the holidays with my boy. It kind of stings not having my husband (the non crazy one) with us but he chose his path. All of his reminding me that he has no plans with his family isn't making me sympathetic. I'm making a mini thanksgiving dinner for me and my son on black Friday as I have to work on Thanksgiving, which I get paid time and a half. Score! I've gotten more handle on my finances and am slowly coming out of the horrible debt he put us in. things are looking up for me and even though I get low days I am feeling so much better now on my own knowing I can survive.


Together for 13 years, married for 8.
H is 46
I'm 40
S is 6
Bombdrop in April 2018
Still in limbo as of 2019