H came by this morning to pick up my daughter. He was strangely quiet, helped himself to a coffee and huddled over by our fireplace. He seemed to be avoiding eye contact. I have noticed that whenever we have a good conversation or laugh together or have a “normal” interaction, he seems to take a big step back from me the next time I see him. Is this normal?
One day of work today and then five days of pool with my peeps. It is going to be such a relief just to concentrate on my sport and nothing else. I remembered that last year, my H brought his friends to watch me play. I played really well and I could tell he was proud to show his friends that his wife was a “shark”...lol. That’s not going to happen this year. Even if he wanted to come watch me, he wouldn’t because he knows my sister is there. He is still avoiding my family like the plague which is going to make Christmas exceedingly difficult. I decided that I am going to put up our tree and some decorations next weekend with my kids. Usually my H does all that but I can’t rely on him to do that anymore.
Found out yesterday that my H bought some second-hand bunkbeds for our kids and has a room set up for them. I suppose I should feel happy that he is making a place for them there. It hurts a little bit though...tells me he is planning to be there for a long time. I am slowly but surely coming to terms with that. I am definitely in a better place today than I was even a week ago. As the song goes... Gettin’ a little bit stronger. (((HUGS))) to all.
