I am so glad you returned for a visit. You sound good and have been keeping busy. I'm sure your place looks fabulous! I can't believe your D will be 18! She is wise beyond her years! Happy Birthday to your D (early). Try to enjoy the holiday season.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.