Gerda

I just listened to that Keller talk and wow

That gave me a lot to think and pray about

It inspires me to persevere

Thank you so much

Our relationship with God is like a marriage I had heard before

It is like a bad marriage that was a new one

And that end part I never heard before

That he was buying her back

And they were not going to lay together for a while

But they would in the future

It is a lovely parable of the love of God

But here is where it breaks down for me

I am not God nor Hosea

I am a sinner who is guilty of not prioritizing my wife in the way I should have

And my wife is not the prostitute

So how can these two sinners come back together

That is my question

And my answer has changed from

That will never happen to

Maybe that can happen

That is my mustard seed


Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids
2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong
2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2
2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving