Coly, this is such wonderful news. I am so happy for you. The sadness will probably still be there for a long time. I know it is for me, but reaching that point where you don't need to know anyone, don't need to reach out, and don't need to make excuses for contact is wonderful. I went through a time where I dreaded the contact, but now don't really care one way or the other. I've started hypnosis/life coaching to help me move forward and feel less stuck (I don't think I'm a counseling kind of girl, I want to leave the past in the past and focus on the future). Who knows what is out there, but I think it has to be better than the last few years.