Feeling lost, scared and wanting to fix this. Pt 2

[Turbine]

I've lost her... some of the worst words I have ever heard. I so want to show her, not tell her or force her or anything else, show her this is wrong. I know... she has to reach that conclusion herself. Can't be force or encouraged or nothing. I do love her so much. I'm sure there are others here that are in this position with their S. Not sure what sort of comfort there is in that if any.

Time machine and changes... oh yeah. Like anyone else of that I'm certain.

I hope that she changes her mind about the D and being separated. She doesn't... ever? God, I pray that isn't the case.

The sleep thing has been far longer than this actively has been known. Probably since before my Mom died.

What to do what to do...