Finding the Balance and then Tipping the Scale

[Adam04]

Lost , thank you for the support. I really appreciate it, need all of it I can get right now. Sorry to hear about your sitch but it's good to know you are GAL and that you are feeling better from it. There are so many wonderful people out there and here like yourself for taking their time to help a random stranger out with my sitch. I barely have time during the week and my time is really divided on the weekend being at home separated. When I'm on the computer or iPad, I have to be very careful when my 6 year old comes in asking me to do something with him. I have to clear everything on the pc, clear iPad etc if I can't bring it with me. Typing this on iPhone with my fat fingers takes the whole lunch break

Amoafwl, just wow at the info, thank you so much. You are right, I knew I should not have been baited and instead of just stopping I had to keep pushing knowing we will be on this rollercoaster ride for a long time. I know I have a lot of work ahead of me. I can't take back what I said... but I can dust myself off and continue to educate myself and really learn, not just read but absorb all the info and advice. I need to STFU, and make it a habit to come here to learn, share, decompress , get away from W and GAL. When the bomb dropped I was really weak and said we. Like he together for the kids, try anything, do anything, and now I felt ashamed and felt like I needed to let her know how I felt but you're right. I should have done way better at validation and knowing it isnt about me or trying to fix things. I really need a lot of help with ALL of this from validation, to boundaries, to self control, GAL, everything and knowing and learning about my sitch and what to expect and how to better handle the sitch like when in doubt maybe I need to keep quiet instead of always trying to have an answer for everything. Thank you.