Your recent posts to me suggests you are seeing him in a new light, and I get this, sometimes I just want to scream “send me the effing papers and have it over with” but this comes from anger. Your posts, questioning whether he is still the man you want to be with, are more considered. I think this is part of our journey too ... When we start to take the rose coloured glasses off and look at our marriages objectively. What do you see ?!?
It is not just his decision. It is yours too. Who are you? Who do you want to be?
I don’t know your H, but I think I know you a little. You will be fine no matter what happens and so will the twins because they have you for their mum.