Better weekend I guess. I met a nice bartender at a local restaurant and she recently discovered her exBF was having an affair and has turned her life upside down. We had a chance to talk about our sitches a few times and it was really helpful just to air the dirty laundry. We exchanged numbers and I'm not sure if anything will become of it but it was great just to meet a nice person. I feel like I have been living with a stranger for the last 6 months and someone that just seems to have zero good in her heart right now.
Not sure if what I am doing by expressing interest in someone else is the right thing to do but right now we are just talking and it feels good. I thought about it a lot and realize that I am out working on myself to be the best I can be and I am not going to pass up any opportunities to interact with good people. And man did it clear my head up again, maybe it's the confidence factor...that I can go it alone...I don't need my WW.....I can be independent and she does not control my life.
WW was gone Sat and Sun, OM's birthday and it was so much easier around the house. I didn't feel bad doing my normal routine in the AM....when I am taking care of the house when she is there I feel like I am doing it to pacify her....but in reality I want to live in a clean house....I want my kids to live in a nice house....I want to take care of my kids.
I need to keep this attitude regardless if anything progresses with my new friend. If anything she has just given me new hope that I can move on......I hope this is the start of healthy detachment that can lead me to a happier life.
H-50 W-48 T-19 M -18 S23, S14 BD - 5/9/2018 OM discovered 5/10/2018
In house sep - 8/18/2018 Rope drop 2/15/2019 R'ing since 3/15/2019
