Finding the Balance and then Tipping the Scale

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Hey Adam, weekends are tough on the board you don't get the interaction that you do during the week. I too am not here as much but I can honestly say it is because I am more active on weekends. Then the work week starts and I find myself here more.

Hang in there buddy it is an emotional rollercoaster ride. But I will tell you that you need to start doing things to get your mind off of the sitch at hand and on to other things. I struggle with the exact same things. My W started working from home and is there a lot more than she was before and when I am around her all I think of is things that I want to know about our sitch. And I will tell you for a fact all this does is push her away further if I start asking.

I have had a good week or two just by accident. I was at a local watering hole and met a nice bartender who just went through a similar A with her ex BF. I went back a couple days this week and we eventually exchanged numbers. Not sure what will come of it but it was helpful to both of us to talk about our sitches. Even more it was great to just meet a nice person. I can't tell you how much better I felt this past week knowing that there is life outside of the world I have lived in for the last 19 years.

My WW spent the weekend away again as she has in the past and I really did not care. My point is that I know it is hard to break the lifestyle that we have become so comfortable with and doing with our spouse for all these years. But it has taken me 6 months to realize that maybe I do not love her anymore...I loved the comfort of the situation I was in. My work is not over but after a lot of backslides myself see that there is a world out there and people in it that are good. I'm sure I will backslide again but I am committed to pushing myself to get out there and you need to as well.