Despite all my epiphanies of late, nights are still tough. Currently I am trapped in my bedroom with my dog cause my kids are having a rather loud sleepover with some friends. What was I thinking?!? So I am here with my thoughts and reading all of the posts. I’m continuing to tell my brain some positive messages which helps. But I have to be honest and say that despite all of the bright spots in my days, I am still grieving. Even though my H was not around much, when he was, he was my friend. I miss my friend and it is very hard to come to terms with the fact that he does not miss me. I am really looking forward to the day when I can know that and it no longer hurts. I think having the kids and everything that entails makes that day a little further off than I would like. What is that saying? “Better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.” One day I will agree with that again.
