Every other week I serve at our church. D16 serves in the children's program every Sunday. W has been staying home and usually watching online, often preparing breakfast. In the past with D16 out and 2 hours to spare, I have as described, tried to initiate sex. Now keep in mind, W has continued to move closer and other than physical affection, she has exhibited all indications of moving toward R. More respect than I have seen in years. Consideration and platonic harmony. These attempts have all failed and sometimes resulted in an R talk.
This morning W comes up and knocks on MBR door where I sleep and states that she is going to another local church with a friend. I don't respond. She asks "What is that look on your face?" Although I'm not aware of any specific look and typically she doesn't care to notice any nonverbal cues anyway. I respond "I think you're going simply to avoid a situation". That's it. Well, she goes into this "You think I'm going to church blah, blah blah.." I say nothing except "You asked what I was thinking".
She goes back downstairs and continues to get ready to meet her friend. Shortly after, I go down to make more coffee. I knocked on her door and told her that I didn't want her to go. Well, this was interesting. She asked, "why not, are you preventing me from attending church?" Although she is in a bible study program, she hasn't been to church in many months. I repeated, " I'm asking you not to go". To which she expanded on the very thing that I accused her of doing. "Well I'm not going to stay here and let you tell me all the bad things...blah blah blah" I replied that "If you don't want to be held to your past behaviors, I expect the same." I go back to what I was doing and I can hear her pacing around and pondering what to do. Again she asks "Why don't you want me to go?" I replay " Because I said so" That was enough to justify her defiance. She says "Well I'm going. You're not my father". I don't respond. Although miffed, I am not overly attached to this silly stunt. Running away has always been W's default go to and watching her try to insight anger to justify her actings was, I have to admit, mildly amusing. She leaves and in the usual fashion, I send one more text. "I'm not your father, but I'm still your husband." No reply
Hind sights always 20/20 but at the time I felt putting my foot down was the thing to do. When she said that she would never try to stop me from going to any place, especially not church. I calmly responded that I wouldn't go if she told me not to. Hearing her make accusations about what she knows that I will do, all the meanwhile never wanting to be held to her past, shows selfish WAW behavior that I haven't seen in many months. Although she struggled, she ultimately betrayed my wishes. I stood up without losing my cool.
Thoughts and feedback appreciated.
M 53 W 54, M since 98 D15, D19 8/2013 discovered EA, W maintained contact with OM until 10/14 7/2/17 W said she wanted S, 7/25/17 moved out of MBR 12/17 W says moving out 5/18, W still in home.