Well the previous post from me came from the emotional, residual pain side of what I’ve been living through whereas what I just provided is my logical, balanced, confident side coming through :-). Reality is I NEVER thought I’d be divorced once, much less twice. To find my expectations for my life so completely upside down…just takes a person some time to rectify and come to acceptance of the difference between the expected and the actual. For now, I anchor my life, future and happiness in the marvel of life that is my little D. With time and God’s continued grace and mercy I’ll add on to my life from there.
I think often times the hardest part is letting go of the expectations of what our lives are supposed to be. To think for a number of years that we are walking down one path only to realize that it is a dead-end and that we have to scramble to find another is tough. We look around but often times we can't see any other path, because of course it is always in the darkest moments of our lives that we are force to look. I know that my mind still rebels at times - as much as I miss my old W, I miss the comfort and security of knowing what path I was taking.
B, you are lucky that you have D to anchor you, and that sounds like a great plan. Give yourself time and keep an open mind and a new path will show itself to you.
Hang in there.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019
