D19 called me this week feeling very down. So, I went to visit her yesterday. We had a nice day, but she seemed so sad when I was leaving. I asked her if she wanted me to stay with her longer, she said no. I’m heading out of town, and she calls in tears “I need you”. So back I go. We chatted for a while, and she decided to come home for a few days. She packs some things, and we go the car. NO CAR. It was towed. Ugh! Well, car retrieved, and we are home. She seems much happier. It’s nice to have her here.
I informed H that D was feeling depressed an I was bringing her home. He did message later to ask how she was doing, so that’s something. Even though he knows she is home, I’ll bet he won’t text her or try to see her this weekend. It makes me very sad.
I remind myself I have no control over his interactions with the kids. I am very close to both of my kids, so this is were I focus my energy.
I seem to be having fewer and fewer interactions with H. Makes Sad. Feeling hopeless. I’m feeling very anxious as the month marches on because we will have to discuss how we are moving forward. That was our original agreement. The waiting is the hardest. I feel he is just prolonging the inevitable breakup because he doesn’t have the guts to do it. “One more thing I did bad”.
Well, I will have a clearer picture in a few short weeks. Any movement either way I think will relieve some of my anxiety.
In the meantime, I'm thinking about additional GAL activities.
1. Learn how to make artisan breads. 2. Take a knitting class (I want to knit baby hats for the preemies when I retire) 3. Look into taking a foreign language class (French, which I used to know; or Spanish) 4. Planning a trip with a girlfriend for next year to Alaska (she doesn't know it it! lol)
