I am sad that Christmas is looming. I have not discussed this with H and I don’t want to. I am going to wait for him to bring it up.
I am getting very anxious for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I mulled it over on my own thread about asking H to come to dinner or not for Thanksgiving. Then a friend on Friday night said "Won't that be awkward, having him sitting across from you at the table?" The truth is, I have no idea how it would feel. I think we would all pretend nothing is happening. It's sad and depressing to think about. Then I think "I don't hate him, so why can't we just have a friendly time together". I think this is a bit more likely, with a little bit of sadness mixed in. *Sigh* This is exhausting.
