Thank you FS. I do love you...lol. I know we have not met but I feel like we are kindred spirits. I think the fact that I don’t want to scream or yell right now means that I have moved on a little bit. And if there is an OW, I am pretty sure she does not know about me and if she does, my H has described our relationship as “something that was over long ago” and told her all the reasons why (his version minus the years of lying) and she will feel bad for him, etc... Maybe she is a good person looking for love in maybe she is not a good person who is just looking for some fun. Who knows? I can only hope she is a fat, ugly version of me...lol. My H really is a charismatic person who masks his insecurities and shortcomings very, very well. I have no doubt there are a number of women out there who would fall for his charms. He also has no qualms about stretching the truth or just plain fabricating lies to suit his needs and the person he lies to the most is himself. I feel sorry for him in that regard. That he just may go to his grave without evolving into the person he COULD be. Sadly, I am slowly but surely coming to terms with the idea that that may never happen. Certainly it will not happen for his father who, sadly, my H is a lot more like than he cares to admit. But he was not the only role model in my H’s life. He has a number of beloved uncles. The one he was the closest to and he looked up to the most passed away a few years ago. He left behind his wife of at least 50 years. This uncle would be very ashamed of my H right now... as would his other uncle who passed away last year. There is nothing about what my H has done since his death that is remotely admirable and that is really sad.
Anyway... gotta run... face lasering time!! Nervous...lol. (((HUGS)))
