Truthfully, the good thing is I am walking away from this with the knowledge of some needed self-improvements to work on.
This is key a) because it is what we can control and b) because it requires self-reflection and a recalibration of values. I have a hard time imagining anyone walking away from a divorce without anything to work on (though I suspect a fair number of people are content to lay the blame entirely at the feet of their spouse.) Keep working the process and turning yourself into AMOAFWL.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019